putting on my big girl pants

So.....I've been busy this week, only I haven't picked up my paintbrush once this week! As we head down to the Outer Banks this next week I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to approach some boutiques/galleries with some of my work. After all, this is the place that has inspired all of my beach work.

I've been doing my research and putting together line sheets, sales forms, a new bio and working to make my presentation as 'dominy' as possible! :-)

Who knew how much work it was to create all this stuff? I'm excited and a little nervous about this next step, but I think it's time. Time to put on my big girl pants!

I'll keep you posted!

We've gone greener!

Okay friends....I just have to share the love that I have for our newest appliance! A Vitamix blender- you heard it- a blender. It's totally changed our life. Brandon's brother gave it to us for Christmas and we totally embraced the green-drink revolution. We use it everyday for breakfast and have loved that we now regularly eat veggies first thing in the morning.

Our favorite recipe was one we found by Dr. Oz.

Here's our adaptation that we use for 2 people.

1 apple

1/2 cucumber

2-3 stalks celery

handful spinach/kale/other leafy green*

1/2 bunch parsley

1/2 bunch cilantro

1/2 lime squeezed

1/4 lemon squeezed

1 teaspoon fresh ginger

little splash of filtered water

*I'd NOT recommend using mustard greens here unless you're REALLY looking to clear out your nasal passages....learn from my mistake!! :-)

I roughly chop everything and then viola...

green goodness.

**And the other SUPER PLUS is that it's totally easy to clean! That's major cool points in my book!**

We're hooked, I mean totally hooked. We don't go a day without it now. We also found that this little change led to bigger changes we were ready to make in our diet/lifestyle. We've been eating a primarily vegetarian/vegan diet now for these past four months and are loving how we're feeling. And my husband's cholesterol has gone down over 100 points. And while I can't claim all those points were our diet (he's taking half the dose of medication that his doctor recommended) I'd like to think that these changes are significant.

We haven't totally freaked out and gone off the deep end, because we'll have salmon and maybe red meat (grass fed) once or twice a month. And if we go out we'll get something if we crave it. But I've found at least that some of these splurges seem less satisfying than they used to. So, we'll see how things progress, but for now we're enjoying being a bit greener!

xoxo

finding my truth

I finally did it! I stretched my own canvas...a piece I worked on last summer in Portland.

I had a ton of fun doing it, and it's my largest painting yet (26x48). 

I'm currently deciding if I'm going to change/add/work on it any further. But as I stood back and looked at this baby, a sense of welcomed pride overtook me. I feel like I've come so far since then. Like taking a step back has helped me see me now. 

This painting became the story of me, discovering my truth, honoring my story and my path.

I began with a whale...I wanted to be a marine biologist ever since sixth grade. I was SOOO into whales for awhile. My parents even adopted a whale for me one Christmas. There is something so peaceful and knowing about a whale.

adding more interest...not sure where it's going at this point

What do you want?

TRUTH-my truth to shine through

A girl appears with the body of a salmon. A mermaid sounds more romantic and girly - but she wasn't meant to be one. She's swimming with her whale friend, forward into the darkness, unafraid.

A doorway appears- perhaps an opportunity, a new path

A 'raven' joins us - her insecurities, her doubts, her worry carried on it's wings. 

Calling to her, screeching at her to follow. She attempts to leave them behind and move forward, ever forward.

One Thousand Cranes

Paper Cranes 8x8 on canvas

Original Available Here

After dealing with our recent loss my aunt sent me a few poems and a little paper crane. It was beyond special, and it's amazing how powerful words can be when you're dealing with any kind of pain. I thought about including just a portion of it. But decided it was best left in its entirety. It inspired the above painting.

"One Thousand Cranes" by Michael Petit 

What if, in answer to need or pain, 
you were to fold one thousand paper cranes- 

taking the rice-white sheets of paper 
one by one in your fingers

following the now ancient pattern
once someone's new creation

folding together edges, corners,
points along a line or at the center

creating the slender body, long
neck and beak, the wings

believing with each motion
you moved closer to your wish, that passion

filling your heart, white
flock aloft across the blue sky

doubting, for that is human,
for the moment what you've begun

persevering despite doubt, divine
voyage toward paradise

finishing the last fold
not once but over and over

setting each sacred bird down lightly
beside the ones already flying

counting how many you have done,
how many more are yet to come

losing count but not that memory
your hands and your heart keep

going, going over, forward toward 
the end that is no end-

what would you ask to happen
that had not happened before then,

when you were at long last finished and knew 
your longing and journeying are never through?

The Raven

The Raven

24x24 acrylic on canvas

I thought I'd share some recent progress on a larger painting I've been working on.

What started out as a colorful mess 

(my mom and I did some collaborative painting on some of these initial layers)

became a collection of branches with some interesting bulbs on them

and then I became obsessed with this Springy green color and decided I needed it everywhere! And here this painting sat for several weeks.  I had it up on the wall so I could take little peeks at it throughout the day.

I finally felt like it needed something and this figure of a woman came to me and I ran with it.

After a little more defining, this swirl of 'leaves' came dancing out of the corner. And then again this painting sat for a couple of days. It didn't 'feel' quite right, but I didn't know what direction I wanted to go...

And then it just hit me... this raven 

(you might call it a crow, but we called them ravens in Alaska)

was just waiting for me to set him free.

And I feel REALLY good about where this painting sits now. Maybe a few final touches, but now it feels right. 

Ravens seem like such mysterious birds to me. It reminds me of the raven  I saw on my visit to Portland last year. I was walking to my last day of painting class with Jesse Reno and this raven appeared to be following me the whole way. I would think he was gone and then peek over my shoulder and see him, still there.  The way he looked at me was as if he expected me to understand what he was telling me. It was a strange moment, wondering if this bird was bringing me a message I either should or shouldn't listen to.  How was I to know? I've never had an experience with an animal like that.  When I told everyone in the class about it, they said I should have just asked him. I never uttered a word, but the next time I see a raven you can bet that I just might ask him what he wants.

no envy, no fear

Ever hear a song and just feel like it's screaming out at you to listen? I get this feeling a lot, like my music selection is giving me messages I need to hear. I've heard this Joshua Radin song, No Envy, No Fear many times but I found myself REALLY listening the other day and just had to look up the lyrics and write them in my journal.

some are reaching, few are therewant to reign from a hero's chairsome are scared to fly so highwell this is how we have to try
have no envy and no fearhave no envyno fear
brother, brother we all seeyour hiding out so painfullysee yourself come out to playa lovers rain will wash away
your envy and your fearso have no envyno fear
when your sister turns to leaveonly when shes most in needtake away the cause of painby showing her were all the same.
have no envy and no fear
every day we try to findsearch our hearts and our mindsthe place we used to call our homecan't be found when we're alone
so have no envy, no fear

I think this is a reoccuring theme for me, recognizing that I need to be okay with where I am right now. As an artist, as a mom, as a person....
So, I'll keep humming this song to myself as a reminder of no envy, no fear.

an explosion of color

I know I haven't posted in awhile, but I've been deep in the artistic trenches these days. I've been trying to push my comfort zone, looking to infuse a bit more color in projects, working on big and small ones, trying some new techniques.... 

I feel like over the course of the last couple of weeks I took a couple steps backward in my work and then finally moved a bit forward. I guess that sometimes that's what it takes. I get hyper focused on an idea sometimes and have to see it through, have to see the end result  even to be able to move past it. The beautiful thing about paint is you can ALWAYS paint over it again.

Here is a small piece I've been working on. It started out as a tree with a few collaged paper flowers. It was pleasant enough, my initial  inspiration was a tree I saw on an olive oil bottle.

Then I decided to start playing with color. I put on some good music and focused less on any idea, just feeling things a bit more intuitively. No plan, no expectations...

And here it is a little farther along, with a bit more imagery added in.

And here is where it sits today. I'm not sure if it's done yet. I think it needs to sit and breathe a little bit.

But even where it sits today feels good. Better than where I was a couple of weeks ago. I can feel some forward momentum building in myself and I'm eager to see where it takes me.