Tuesday, March 19, 2013

One Thousand Cranes

Paper Cranes 8x8 on canvas

After dealing with our recent loss my aunt sent me a few poems and a little paper crane. It was beyond special, and it's amazing how powerful words can be when you're dealing with any kind of pain. I thought about including just a portion of it. But decided it was best left in its entirety. It inspired the above painting.

"One Thousand Cranes" by Michael Petit 

What if, in answer to need or pain, 
you were to fold one thousand paper cranes- 

taking the rice-white sheets of paper 
one by one in your fingers

following the now ancient pattern
once someone's new creation

folding together edges, corners,
points along a line or at the center

creating the slender body, long
neck and beak, the wings

believing with each motion
you moved closer to your wish, that passion

filling your heart, white
flock aloft across the blue sky

doubting, for that is human,
for the moment what you've begun

persevering despite doubt, divine
voyage toward paradise

finishing the last fold
not once but over and over

setting each sacred bird down lightly
beside the ones already flying

counting how many you have done,
how many more are yet to come

losing count but not that memory
your hands and your heart keep

going, going over, forward toward 
the end that is no end-

what would you ask to happen
that had not happened before then,

when you were at long last finished and knew 
your longing and journeying are never through?

Friday, March 15, 2013

The Raven

The Raven
24x24 acrylic on canvas

I thought I'd share some recent progress on a larger painting I've been working on.


What started out as a colorful mess 
(my mom and I did some collaborative painting on some of these initial layers)

became a collection of branches with some interesting bulbs on them

and then I became obsessed with this Springy green color and decided I needed it everywhere! And here this painting sat for several weeks.  I had it up on the wall so I could take little peeks at it throughout the day.

I finally felt like it needed something and this figure of a woman came to me and I ran with it.

After a little more defining, this swirl of 'leaves' came dancing out of the corner. And then again this painting sat for a couple of days. It didn't 'feel' quite right, but I didn't know what direction I wanted to go...

And then it just hit me... this raven 
(you might call it a crow, but we called them ravens in Alaska)
was just waiting for me to set him free.

And I feel REALLY good about where this painting sits now. Maybe a few final touches, but now it feels right. 

Ravens seem like such mysterious birds to me. It reminds me of the raven  I saw on my visit to Portland last year. I was walking to my last day of painting class with Jesse Reno and this raven appeared to be following me the whole way. I would think he was gone and then peek over my shoulder and see him, still there.  The way he looked at me was as if he expected me to understand what he was telling me. It was a strange moment, wondering if this bird was bringing me a message I either should or shouldn't listen to.  How was I to know? I've never had an experience with an animal like that.  When I told everyone in the class about it, they said I should have just asked him. I never uttered a word, but the next time I see a raven you can bet that I just might ask him what he wants.



Thursday, March 7, 2013

no envy, no fear

Ever hear a song and just feel like it's screaming out at you to listen? I get this feeling a lot, like my music selection is giving me messages I need to hear. I've heard this Joshua Radin song, No Envy, No Fear many times but I found myself REALLY listening the other day and just had to look up the lyrics and write them in my journal.

some are reaching, few are therewant to reign from a hero's chairsome are scared to fly so highwell this is how we have to try
have no envy and no fearhave no envyno fear
brother, brother we all seeyour hiding out so painfullysee yourself come out to playa lovers rain will wash away
your envy and your fearso have no envyno fear
when your sister turns to leaveonly when shes most in needtake away the cause of painby showing her were all the same.
have no envy and no fear
every day we try to findsearch our hearts and our mindsthe place we used to call our homecan't be found when we're alone
so have no envy, no fear

I think this is a reoccuring theme for me, recognizing that I need to be okay with where I am right now. As an artist, as a mom, as a person....
So, I'll keep humming this song to myself as a reminder of no envy, no fear.